November 20, 2019

Facing Demons

Monday, Nov 18, 2019

Today was a great day for me! I had my Mental Health Evaluation and my appointment with my Dietitian. This means I am one step closer to my surgery date.

Tomorrow I will be going to the bank and getting all my checks ready to mail to my hospital and doctors.

The cost of my surgery is $12,700 and I am self pay. Once I get those checks in the mail I can breathe!

I am sure many want to know how I feel about getting sleeved before Christmas. ME NO CARE! I will eat some mashed potatoes and be one happy girl. This is my Christmas gift to myself.

I saw an awesome post on Instagram yesterday.

This is the major downfall of many who go through Weight Loss Surgery. You MUST get your head in the right place. Love yourself enough to know WHY you are going through this process. If your head is not in the right place, you WILL fail. Even top athletes know this so why would you think it would be any different for you.

One of the things that use to make me so upset when I was going to my support groups after I had my band in 2009 was when people would PROUDLY say, I cheated with a milkshake today because I could get it down! WHY…WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS? Well, it’s because you have not faced the demons that have got you in this situation in the first place!

I never understood that and because of that I lost my weight in 9 months and was the poster cheerleader chick for my doctors office. MY HEAD WAS IN THE RIGHT PLACE.

Listen, I’m not screaming at you. I am preparing you for battle! You got to get that food demon under control. For many that means tacking things that are scary as hell! Mine was sexual abuse and feelings of abandonment, but I look that horrible monster in the face and said I AM WORTH IT.

And so are you….I believe in you. I believe you can do this and I believe you can live a happy and healthy life.

Go get it…..it is there waiting for you, but you first got to SLAY the DEMON!

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